Yes, I'm cross and disappointed with him.

ME, angry with HIM ?!
I know you might find this a little bizarre, if not shocking, coming from me. But it's true. (and this hasn't been the first time either)

It's cause I read some excerpts yesterday from biographies of NS people who had been close to Hitler/some random quotes as well... on Hitler and Eva's "sex life" their relationship, the intimacy, them calling each other nicknames, Eva having taken birth control pills, how she stayed alone with him in his office after long hours.. etc etc and bla bla.

Now. I don't look for this information purposely. I was just looking through some Hitler pics and I stumble upon stuff like this.
Ok, for you this might not mean anything, maybe you can't relate to this problem or maybe you just don't give a shit. (which is completely understandable, don't worry)

But for me....Every time I come across "disappointing information" like this, I truly die a little inside. (And I'm completely serious about this. You can tell. I'm not using any smileys or any icons or anything.)
I don't want to believe it. I truly don't. But I'm a realist, I can't just ignore all this information; the things people have apparently "witnessed"!
I'm able to say conscientiously that deep down I would accept any behaviour between the two of them......but NOT sexual intercourse. No.
I'm not gonna deny these certain "facts", I believe however that they do not cover the full picture and do not suffice as full PROOF. Proof that they were intimate and that he was in love with her. Even though all this information might point to that conclusion, in the end there is still always hope. And I choose to hang on to that hope. Even though it hangs by a thread.

It's like this: picture you like someone. You like them very very much, you might feel like you love them. And then one day, from afar you see that person in a happy mood, kissing and embracing another.

A stone on your heart. The most overwhelming feeling of unrequited love.
That's how it feels.

And in a way, I can't look at pics of him or read about him, with these thoughts in the back of my head. It hurts.

And finally, I'm disappointed with him because it's extremely rare that I find out something about him which truly makes my heart leap! It's usually "negative" information like this that I stumble upon. And the worst thing is it's all a giant blow/counter-attack to the one undying fantasy I have concerning him ---> [link]